2020 In a Nutshell
Outside the obvious challenges we have been experiencing collectively, I don’t know anyone who wasn’t challenged in many other ways this year. For me it seemed like every month I was dealing with one thing or another. In March, I got an upper respiratory infection just after healing from an outpatient surgery. In April, my biological father passed away. Last Christmas I saw him for the first time since we met 27 years ago. After we lost contact, I often wondered if he was still alive. The universe tends to give us what we want at times and wasn’t surprised that I was able to be there during the end of his life.
Those experiences at the beginning of the year made me think about how my husband and I were not living near any family. We had some serious conversations about what we should do about it and decided to move to Florida where other family members were moving to and some that already live there. We sold our home in May and headed on a two week drive across the country making stops in Houston to visit with my family and then Pensacola to visit Mike’s family. Just after arriving in Florida, the man who I call my dad and who had raised me since I was 3 ½ went in for a surgery that ended up being quite a scare. It was touch and go for a while, but he is by the grace of God, doing much better and healing from open heart surgery.
“Every adversity, every failure, every heartache carries with it the seed of an equal or greater benefit.” – Napoleon Hill
In October, my ex-boyfriend died suddenly. He was the last serious relationship before my husband. We spent 6 years together having met in Tampa, moved to Dallas, then Carlsbad, CA and then to Vegas. He ended up moving back to Tampa a few years ago. Although we did not keep in touch we had mutual friends and his mother stayed in contact with me. Like my biological dad, even though we were not close, I still felt a loss. I wouldn’t be here today if it weren’t for my biological father and I wouldn’t be the woman I am today if I did not go through what I did with my ex. Having worked on forgiveness with both, I was able to be sad and also grateful for them and the roles they played in my life.
A few weeks ago we were hit with hurricane Eta. The sea storm surge and rain overflow flooded the street and almost all the way to the house. Our beautiful yard is looking all brown but I’m thankful it wasn’t worse.
Through all this I’ve been incredibly blessed with my dream to live by the beach and work from home. New work and clients come to me effortlessly. My recent hair mineral test results showed a lot of improvement. You would think that these life changes or challenges would have caused more stress, but it didn’t because I had the self-care tools to help me stay grounded. Read my blog about my healing reactions and testimony. The development program isn’t just about diet, supplements and the detox procedures; it’s also about releasing traumas, self-forgiveness, recognizing our patterns that we developed to cope and taking our power back through self-care and self-love. I go on gratitude walks most mornings, soaking in the sun, and thanking God for everything I’ve been through and where it brought me to today. Life isn’t always easy and we can’t predict what will come our way, but I know that my perception of it and how I choose to handle things is entirely up to me.